Dealing with Disappointment

Well, it wasn't the answer that I had hoped for. On Friday, I got a final "no" to the book proposal that I presented at She Speaks last year. I started writing in the spring with an idea and the thought that I'd learn a little something about the process. I never thought that an idea that I felt led to write about would make it so far. It had made it over several hurdles, and as each "yes" was received, my hopes began to climb.

It was really hard to get that "no", and I've experienced some of the stages of grief:

Sadness--I've cried many tears including all during worship this morning. I had started to build a plan for the next year, and it's tough to let go of that.

Anger--I thought about naming names and titling my post with an explicative that starts with the same letter as "Disappointment". Sorry if that shocks you...just being real.

Denial--I've thought, "Maybe they'll change their minds and call me with good news."

Acceptance-with-Joy--God has a plan. It's different that what I'd hoped, but it's not derailed or late. I've learned so much and received support and encouragement along the way. I gained a precious connection with an editor with a huge heart. No regrets!

On Friday, I thought again about my friend Cindy. She's recently been diagnosed with breast cancer. Do you know what she said to me? She said, "This is my chance to show my children how to deal with adversity." Amazing!

So this is my chance to show my children how to deal with disappointment. I cried, and then we went to Chili's. I proposed a toast, "Here's to never giving up!" and we clicked our Cokes.

It won't be this week (I'm giving myself a little break), but I'll be working on that proposal some more. I've had a little inspiration via my smart hubby, and I'll get past those marketing guys yet!! :)