Fear of failure.
This morning as I worked through today's Made to Crave exercises in the participant's guide, I once again felt that hard place of resistance in my heart. "What's that about?" I wondered.
It's fear of failure. I've often joked (while others laugh and I self-flagellate) that I've been Weigh Down and Weigh Back Up. I've done Weight Watchers and Cake Watchers--several times. I have been to the Southbeach and then back to the Northbeach where all the fluffy people bask in the sun.
I've done this journey before. Why will this be different?
I have an answer to that question this morning. It's different, because we're addressing my heart and not just my eating habits.
Here's the question that brought my "aha moment" this morning: "For each temptation you wrote down (Lysa has us record our temptations that come with the cravings, lust of the eyes and boasting), how would you describe the craving--what you wanted most of all--behind the temptation?"
Ohhhhh...now we're talking a language that I understand. God's been speaking to me about it for weeks now. Do you know what I mean from previous posts?
Idols. Those wrong cravings are idols.
What are mine? The desire to have my own way without any consequences and the desire for luxurious comfort.
I'm not without hope though. Lysa points this out about how Eve and Jesus were both tempted:
"Eve and Jesus had similar responses to their temptations--they both kept a laser-like focus on their desires. The difference between them was what they wanted most of all--what they craved. Eve's cravings displaced God and made Him secondary to her other desires....Jesus' cravings asserted God supremacy over every other desire, even a legitimate desire for food...."
I've prayed for God to "change my wanter" before, but back then I was praying for Him to change my desire for sugar-laden goodies to fruits and veggies. Today I'm praying for my wanter to change from wanting my own way to desiring His way above all else. That's going to change several areas of my life!
What's your "aha moment" from Made to Crave this week?
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My aha moment came as I have left a hyperthyroid untreated. Though there is NO valid excuse, it went untreated out of fear of gaining weight I have lost back. How crazy is that?
I now have neuropathy in my hands and feet. All of this for a "healthy" thinner me.
As I am reading Made to Crave, the reality of my poor decision made me ashamed, but I also felt peace that other women are on this journey with me.
So, yesterday I went back to my endocronologist and our game plan for my physical health is in motion. I am also meeting with "the Great Physician" daily to work on my spiritual health.
THANK YOU, AMY!!!! :)
Ch. 2 - Replacing My Cravings "It is a battle that rages in my heart...Really surrender. Surrender to the point where I will make radical changes for the sake of my spiritual health perhaps even more that my physical health. Oh LORD, is it possible I love and rely on food more than I love and rely on You?
The entire book is FULL of AWE moments for me. I like what you said too about "failure"...girl I can so relate!!!
Thank you for blogging about your journey with "Made to Crave". My husband and I are BOTH unemployed at the moment so I cannot buy my own copy right now. Your blog is currently my lifeline.
Five years ago I lost 47 pounds at Weight Watchers and kept it off for about 3 years. I am a pastor's wife and, let's just say, the gates of hell tried REAL hard to prevail against us 2 years ago. And what did I do? I ATE!! I gained all the weight back!! It tears me up. I am an emotional eater so, for me, a bag of potato chips is sinful! I turn to the chips for comfort rather than my Jesus. I am so ashamed, so disappointed in myself. Please pray for me. I know what victory tastes like and that's what I'm craving.
Bless you!
Nan Jones
Findingpiece, girl, I feel your pain. I'm hypothyroid, and that little gland can make a lot of trouble! When I lost about 30 pounds years ago, my doctor actually asked me if I was taking extra Synthroid to lose the weight. I hadn't, but it planted a little seed of a thought that I have to resist.
Nan, I so understand how discouraging it is to gain all the weight back. A lot of us have done it, so we'll be praying all our sisters through this life-long journey!
For those of you who don't have the money to invest in the book, make sure to make time to watch the FREE webcasts. All information can be found at www.madetocrave.org. I knew they would be good, but I had no idea how FABULOUS they would really be until I watched last week. You'll feel like you need to send a check to somebody. :)
Amy, thank you for your prayers and encouragement. I will check out the webcasts - that's wonderful.
Nan
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