I've always considered myself somewhat of a late bloomer. I learned how to ride a bike late, had my first "boyfriend" late and needed my first training bra later than all my friends.
I was feeling that feeling with full force this week on my wun. The calendar says that I should be having an easier time than I am. I ran the first 9 minute interval with ease but needed one extra breather in the 2nd one and several in the last.
"Why can't I stay on schedule?" I moaned.
Sometimes I look at the spiritual growth of the women around me and think the same thing. I'm inspired by women who obviously walk closely with God, but I often fall into the deadly comparison trap, wondering why I can't seem to keep up. Here are a couple things that I reminded myself of on my wun:
- My journey is unique--Although I may not be meeting all the milestones as fast as some, I'm meeting them faster than others. Comparison isn't helpful unless I use it as inspiration to meet a goal. One kind of comparison leads to discouragement while the other leads to inspiration. God doesn't expect me to be just like anyone else--only to be completely obedient to Him every day.
- Moving forward (even slowly) is growth--It's quitting that I want to avoid. I need to see forward movement in both my spiritual and physical goals as something to celebrate.
I want to embrace my own journey with God joyfully. Trying grow on my own schedule is not only a waste of time but discouraging.